Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sampah Kehidupanku

Bagai Kota yang telah dibina oleh Yeremia, begitulah jiwa dan kehidupan kita yang ingin dibangunkan oleh kita....


saya selalu menyatakan bahawa saya ingin berubah tetapi tidak berhasil dan saya bertambah sakit..hati saya sakit dan kuasa iblis tidak habis-habis ingin menjatuhkan saya dengan masalah peribadi saya, perasaan saya, maruah saya dan sebagainya.... saya pada mulanya tidak mengerti akan semua ini... saya bertanya kepada Bapa.. Bapa kenapa semua ini terjadi??kenapa Bapa tidak menghiraukan saya yang sedang ingin berubah??kenapa Bapa di surga tinggalkan saya??kenapa Bapa tidak sayang saya?kenapa saya rasa jauh dari Bapa..??


saya mencuba pelbagai cara...saya pergi ke gereja, berdoa, mengikut pelayanan, menari bagi Dia dan sebagainya tetapi apa yang saya dapat hanya la kesakitan dan tangisan...namun saya tidak berhenti untuk mencari Dia....


Lalu saya mengikuti satu kem yang dinamakan "Rebuild, Renew, Reform"..

hati saya sangat sedih kerana kem tersebut diadakan selama seminggu..saya mula merungut dan merungut dan merungut...aiii lama betul kem ni..

tetapi saya pelajari sesuatu dari kem tersebut...iaitu "Rebuil, Renew, Reform" kehidupan saya...

di kem tersebut, kami pelajari tentang buku Yeremia. Dimana, dia telah membina kota yang sudah runtuh dan tidak mempunyai harapan lagi...Yeremia membangunkan kota tersebut dengan pada mulanya MEMBUANG SEMUA SAMPAH YAG TERTANAM DI DALAM TANAH DAN JUGA DI SEKELILINGNYA. Lepas itu, MEMPERBAIKI SEMULA STRUKTUR-STRUKTUR KOTA TERSEBUT dan MEMBINA SEMULA KOTA TERSEBUT yang akhirnya MEMBANGUNKAN KOTA tersebut...


begitu juga dengan kehidupan diri kita...untuk megubah kehidupan kita, kita perlu membuang semua sampah yang ada di diri kita..iaitu keinginan daging kita yang menyebabkan kita jatuh ke dalam dosa...kerana Bapa tidak akan dapat mendekatkan diri dengan kita sekiranya kita tidak kudus seperti Dia yang kudus..selepas itu, baru la kita mampu memperbaiki diri kita...hubungan kita dengan musuh-musuh kita...dan seterusnya kita bangun dan bangkit ke arah Bapa di sorga...memang ianya tidak mudah untuk melakukan semua itu...seperti juga Yeremia dimana mereka telah diganggu oleh si Sanbalat dan Tobat...Sanbalat dan Tobat tidak habis-habis coba untuk menjatuhkan semangat rakyat tersebut dari membina kota itu...tetapi mereka berjaya melakukan nya..
sy harap semangat seperti Yeremia dapat ditanam untuk membangunkan kehidupan saya yang hancur...

Sentuh Hatiku - Maria Shandi

betapa ku mencintai
segala yang telah terjadi
tak pernah sendiri
jalani hidup ini
selalu menyertai

betapa ku menyedari
didalam hidupku ini
Kau selalu memberi
rencana terbaik
oleh karena kasih

c/o:
Bapa
Sentuh hatiku
ubah hidupku
menjadi yang baharu
bagai emas yang murni
Engkau membentuk
bencana hatiku

Bapa
ajar ku mengerti
sebuah kasih
yang selalu memberi
bagai air mengalir
yang tiada
pernah berhenti

Friday, January 9, 2009

-Me and My new Life-

*My 10 Damn Commanment*

1)No Hang my head off
2) Stop damaging my lungs
3) Love myself
4) get up early
5) stop cursing someonelses life
6) stop being such a b*cth
7) Try to be nice
8) Stop going to the club
9) forget about him
10) get him out of my head

*My Secret*

"Can't tell you guys coz it's a secret"

*My Vision*

Say less but nothing, see more but something, do more but everything, think wise but stupidity, do well but failing...
and my conclusion is...i dont know...

*My World*

Just leave me with my dream stop bugging me andjust shut up and see..

*My Hatred*

People who judge with confidence

*My Motto*

"just shut up and do ur work"

*The Best Part About Me*

"Speechless"

*My New Boyfriend*

"Annoynomous"

*My Conclusion*

"Just shut up have fun with your life"

-Then again, i"ll think back with my 10 commanment-

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

man are no match for women

A very attractive woman went up to the bar in a quiet rural pub...
She gestured alluringly to the bartender who approached her immediately.
She seductively signaled that he should bring his face closer to hers.
As he did, she gently caressed his full beard.

"Are you the manager?" she asked, softly stroking his face with both hands.
"Actually, no," he replied.
"Can you get him for me? I need to speak to him," she whispered,
running her hands beyond his beard and into his hair.

"I'm afraid I can't," breathed the bartender.. "Is there anything I can do?"
"Yes. I need for you to give him a message," she continued,
running her forefinger across the bartender's lip and slyly popping a couple of her fingers into his mouth and
allowing him to suck them gently.

"What should I tell him?" the bartender gasped for breathe and managed to say.
"Tell him," she whispered, "There's no toilet paper, hand soap, or paper towels in the ladies room."

wo-man??

Believe it or not.
Woman has
Man in it;
Mrs. has
Mr . in it;
Female has
Male in it;
She has
He in it;
Madam has
Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women!

Men were born between the legs of a woman,
yet men spend all their life and time trying
to go back between the legs of a woman....

Why?

BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME
?
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?
MENtal illness
MEN
strual cramps
MEN
tal breakdown
MEN
opause
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble,
it's a
HIS
terectomy.
so women...have fun reading it...
while man???just trying to annoy u guys..hee..

Monday, June 23, 2008

Friends forever

Friends are very important in our life. They are like the second closest people in your life. They play an important role to keep us smiling and kill the loneliness away.
I thought i will never find a true friend anymore...yet my all my thought are wrong..
I found a new friends that are really a true friend...and all my thought about Church people througly change....and the new friends that i meet really change my way about christianity...
i meet them at kuching sarawak and leave with them for 5 month....they just really amaze me about what true friend really mean..

there are like an extra shoulder for u to carry your burden everyday of your life..no need to whisper nor tell your problem...by just being with them, your worries are gone..
for you know, they will always there to be friend with you,no matter who you are or what you did... they just accept you for who you are.....
they just care for each other..and love each other....
they treat you like sibling and family
coz they are the people who are feel with love
and im glad that they are my friend...